You start first as you think it’s the nature of things. If you are lucky it’s also funny or interesting for you and you like it. You start working and then you become good at what you do and you start working faster, better, have a better understanding of things. But what if things never get known and newer things appear each day. What if you also have to work for a family, or for your company. Then you work more and more and there is something unfinished, something which is just starting, something almost ready. But you like what you do and you do it well and it becomes more and more of you until it’s all. And then you want to stop, and you work such that one day you don’t have to. But the world makes this scenario very unlikely and you work more and more and at the beginning you feel like if you would stay one more hour, one more night then maybe it will end. And you hope that each moment when you work, that this last piece will add more to the end. And you like what you do, and sometimes you are forced in doing things you don’t like but then you try to work something else, find some of the things which motivated you before and you start working more …

And then you cannot sleep because you have unfinished tasks. You must finish as most as you can before the day ends, and then you don’t ever fell asleep in peace but beaten by work. And maybe you sleep once in a while good, and peaceful as the project finished as you finally put everything in place, and maybe you have a day or two when the mind is free but then it starts over and you wake with new plans, new ideas and you must work for money, and you must work to stop working and you must work to rest your mind. And anyway, in those free moments you realize you are working for so long that the world and the people changed around you and the only thing you can do, as the only thing you now know is to go back to work.

And as you work you stay on a chair, in front of your computer hour after hour, day after day, night after night and you grow bigger. At the beginning you don’t realize it. And you are used to eat normally as you did when you played, runed, lived. You don’t realize that you are growing bigger and bigger until it’s visible to you, it hits you. At first you ignore it, you forget it in your work and you don’t need tight clothes when you sit at a desk all day anyway. You don’t need much when you go from the work to the bed and back. But one day, in one of those so rare free days you want to do something, like run, play, all the things you did before and you realize you can’t do either of them as you are both older and fatter. Then you start fighting on two fronts, you fight the work and you fight the hunger. As your eyes go dim and the problems burn your neurons you feel it more and more. The hunger burns your head even if your belly does not want it, it’s the mind craving for sugar, bars, chocolate, cola. And you eat in order to work more, and you work and you eat. At some point you will fight the hunger and you will fight the work but in the end you will remain empty of both as the work has lost all meaning and the food has lost all taste. The work tastes fat and the food smells work.

The sad and somehow funny thing about all the above is that the problem and the solution, at least partially, are very simple. The problem is the speed of your life. As you work in a fast moving world, as your work requires that you do several tasks in the same time, that you have meetings, talk to clients, work and perform maintenance at the same time, as you are supposed to solve problems as fast as possible your life starts working at that speed, and this speed, which is not natural for your body is what’s causing all the problems. The speed, contrary to what you might expect, does not allow you to life more, instead you live less, you cannot enjoy any moment as you already skipped it for the one after. All the time passes in high speed around you. The solution is simple. Just take the time to enjoy a moment and at each time remember that your life is now, in this moment and you cannot do nothing by skipping to the next, you just loose this one. Find the peace of a moment inside the flow of the world and you can leave your life inside.

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